I feel sick, but only physically. That always seems to happen when I drink more than one cup of coffee.

Why am I talking about this? It's boring, I'm boring. I need to change, a lot.

But I'm excited, I'll be meeting Josh tomorow (NOT Josh June) and I'm really psyched cause I got my hair done today and it looks sooooo good. 

I'm glad I left before everything went "BOOM" last night, because for the time that I was there, I really enjoyed myself. I felt like I was cool with everyone who was there, like none of us secretley hated eachother, and it felt so stress-free. I mean, I'm sure there are people who hate me in secret, but I don't really care to know. I'm sure the one person there who did hate me was Brenda, but it doesn't really bother me, we've drifted apart, I've tried to be polite to her, but what can you do? I guess we went from being decent friends to just tolerating eachother, but those things just happen I guess.


Apparantly after I left everyone was pissed at eachother and all this drama that doesn't involve me happened, and now I know that I left for a reason. I'm just too happy right now to let anything petty bring me down. 

Happy about all my college friends being home
Happy about meeting a boy that respects me and likes me and doesn't lead me on
Happy about the show coming up
Happy about break
Happy about my personal life coming out of this agonizing phase


Now I can focus on getting things done and being there for my friends when they need me (and actually wanting to be there). This is the healing process I've been waiting for. I'm not just content or pleased, I am happy and excited, I have so much to look forward to. It feels great. I wanna be there for everyone and help them when they need me. I want to be selfless, I want to see everyone else in a good place. But everyone seems to be in a bad place right now. Come to me, ask for my help, call me, I want to make you happy.